Who put the fluid in ‘gender fluid’.

I do not really consider myself laboratory material, however, I have to say that as I observe the changes in my body I cannot help but reflect on them. In a way my body is, and always has been a laboratory experiment for the gods.

“Oh, Apollo! I’ve got this great fun game! Come and watch I’m going to make this male human long to be a female human. Let’s see what happens!”

“For God’s sake, Artemis, last week you were pulling the wings off dragons for fun. And what is this new torture?”

“They’re only humans…”

Well, here’s the thing. I take a small dose of hormones and do a number of things that regulate testosterone production and the result is a few slow but noticeable things in my body. What I didn’t expect was that I’d feel different as well. I respond differently to things now. It could be that I am maturing, though I doubt it. Sylvester said whenever he feels like that it’s wind. But with me it seems more to be something to do with the hormones. I am definitely a much more gentle person when I am at my most femme. Conversely, if I am stressed and upset, then sure as heck, that testosterone kicks right in and I fall back on old masculine responses. That in itself upsets me more, because I would like to rid myself of my masculine self.